I've just gotten back from five days at my parents place and I've come to realize something. As much as my family may annoy me and piss me off, I miss them like crazy. I've been back in my apartment for about an hour and I'm sitting here crying my eyes out because it's quiet and I'm by myself and it sucks. I just got back into the rythym of living with seven other people and now I have to adjust to being alone again. Which is funny because I live in a building full of people and a town full of people and yet here I am, just little old me in my apartment. I really don't mind the solitude most of the time but I guess it's the feeling of being disconnected from family that gets to me.
I realize that alot of this is just my body telling me that it's still trying to finish up healing the damage from getting teeth pulled. But it still sucks. Leaving today took twice as long as I had estimated because the little kids had to give me hugs and kisses and tell me that they were going to miss me. It's hard to leave when Hayley's insisting that I have to stay because if I go she'll miss me. I didn't get to say goodbye to Catherine because she was gone to work on one of the local farms by the time I got up.
I'll get over this in a day or two but tonight's going to be rough.
Josh, I love you. I just wish you were here. I could really use a hug right now.